Let me hear you call my name.
More than words.
You know you love me, too.
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Tuesday, August 3, 2010
Should I comment on myself that I am so unfortunate to be in Singapore right now? For someone to decide to migrate from a country to another country, it takes courage, tears and faith. And so do I. It is the Courage to be alone in another unfamiliar place without all your friends, and also courage to make new friends. New life can never compare to the old life that I’m used to lead, I got a group of childhood classmates from PRC, they talk to me, they miss me and they remember me even until now when I had left for so many years already. This kind of friendship is hard to find especially in here. I feel sad when some people just express their thoughts out inconsiderately and even implicate others. Example would be when they are unsatisfied with your work performance or pinpoint at you, as a person, they will mention your ancestors, your parents and even your country of origin. As a China Chinese living here (I’m proud of my country and being a Chinese), I don’t feel safe, warm and being respect by others HERE. In here, harmony is an important word that the government has been always emphasizing on. But, I don’t think most of the people follow. I feel insulted when people just scold my country like fuck, just mention “cheap” to describe the Chinese and just implicate all my country people. We are not that fortunate as you lucky kids, your parents “brat” you like a little prince or princess, send you to tuition classes when you are young. They did everything just to let you pick up something call “English”, so that you will be a useful person in future. However we do not have the chance to, that’s why our language is not that good as you, so is this a crime? Is it wrong to be a Chinese? Aren’t your ancestors from my country as well? If they don’t swim all the way from china to here, do you think you will exist at the first place? And do you think you will be really that useful in future? Next is a tear. Frankly speaking, I shed a lot of tears when knowing I’m coming to Singapore and will be so called migrates to here forever. I can’t bear to leave my own country. I love this beautiful place with four seasons, with experience of tornado, with bicycle trips, with my dear friends, with picnics every week, with my cousins who are always with me, and with all my relatives, my school and my dream. I can’t bear to be separated from those lovely and precious memories. However I am left with no choice but got to come to this unfamiliar place. I need to restart my life; I shed tears whenever I miss my friends every night. I shed tears when I don’t even know how to spell the alphabets out, I shed tears when I don’t know how to communicate with my school teachers and friends. I feel sad and why am I so “stupid” like someone had mentioned in their msn. The first time that I start to learn about something call English is when I was 12, it was the time when I start to memorize the alphabets. Am I fortunate? Yes, I would say thanks to my parent for bringing me to here to learn about English though 12 is a late age to start and thanks to the wonderful education system here, so that I am able to pick up the basics of English and able to communicate with a lot of normal people. Aren’t you all fortunate to start learning when you are 4 (nursery)? But do you actually appreciate it and learn it with all your heart? I doubt so. Last would be faith. I have faith in this unfamiliar place when I touched down at the Airport, it is a beautiful place and it is a place where I most probably would be living forever here. At first sight, I felt “wah, the people here are all so polite, nice and cheerful”. However I think I was being deceived by the mask. There was a Chinese saying, “it takes time to see through a real person’s heart”. I totally agree. I lost the faith, as a general opinion, I think besides me, there are a lot out there having the same thoughts as me. Whenever people mention Chinese PRC, the people here will just refer us to some unpleasant words. Whenever they are made angry by some Chinese people, they would just scold my country, my country people. Are you being fair? The evidence is all kept by me, it’s a crime to scold the whole nation of another country, but it’s not a crime to be a Chinese and to be poor in English. I think it’s time to seek some legal opinions and as well as a fair treatment from my government as well as fair parties. I am fair, I would just mention those who are at fault. Here always refer those people who come from other country to be foreign talent, how true is this? Discrimination still exists. |
